Pouring into me

9am is when I take my first call until 5:30pm supposedly, this may vary depending on if I’m on a call. But for that entire shift back to back I am listening to people complain, some kind some rude just telling me about their problems and expecting me to fix it. When I get off work it’s the same thing In my personal life just constant chatter about everybody’s problems and what’s going on in their life. I feel like I’m contradicting myself because on a previous post I specifically titled it “Let People Have Their Problems” and here I am allowing people’s problems and worries to consume my mind and pollute my mood disrupt my energy and leave me feeling frazzled. I feel like I’m falling back where I don’t want to be carrying too much, caring about if I don’t answer the phone will a person be mad, carrying about if this person is not getting enough attention will they feel neglected, worried about tip toeing around others insecurities, worried about if I’m offending one person if my attention is at the moment with the next person. It’s so much goodness gracious. You know what fuck this shit I DONT CARRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ANYMOREEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!! My actions from now on will be for me PERIOD

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck LET ME TF OUTTA HERE